into work for an hour today then IM OUT. young adults retreat this weekend with my fave home group peeps and brian holland. SO excited! i need to get away…and i need me some good Jesus time! i hope it snows! …butnottoomuch. Have a GREAT weekend my friends!
this was the only phrase that i distinctly remember coming out of my mouth. high pitched. and frequently. i asked brett if he was serious.
On saturday February 12th. My best friend waited for me under my favorite tree, and asked me the craziest question ever asked. thats right peeps. im an ENGAGED woman. for those who are curious. here is what happened…to the best of my memory (because lets face it…im still kinda out of it…and just really beginning to come out of the shock.)
a few weeks ago…bretts cousin kate (soon to be MY cousin kate :) ) requested to have a “lady date” with me. she mentioned that she had a huntington library pass and some sort of coffee consumption was suggested. which really is my idea of a PERFECT saturday. so we decided to meet up on a VERY particular saturday (her only day off). we met up around 1:30 and i was pretty consistently sketched out on the day…wondering if maybe more was going down than i thought. i convinced myself i was crazy and decided to just enjoy the girl day with a fantastic friend.
we sat and had coffee at zona rosa and talked about life and such. and even stumbled upon the topic of marriage…and how brett and i had talked about getting married soon…but it looked as if it wasnt gonna happen as soon as we thought. kate gave a sympathetic smile and encouraged me that one day it will happen and i agreed that whenever it did…as long as im with brett im happy.
little did i know.
so we grabbed our coffee and left to roam around the huntington library for a little while. she really wanted to see the japanese gardens and i happily agreed. on our way over to her spot i started telling her how much i love the huntington and that there are these willow trees that have benches under them, and they are my favorite thing in life! its kind of like one of my “special” places that i like to go to.
so the place began to close and we thought we would hit up the trees on the way out. we were walking and the sun was going down and i just saw this figure standing under the tree. a brett shaped figure.
still convincing myself that i was crazy i ignored the figure and began to kind of walk slightly away from it. kate simply pushed me along. and i saw. it was brett. lookin all snazzy in a skinny tie and a vest. i wish that i could remember what he said. im sure there was an i love you in there. honestly i just couldnt stop looking directly in his eyes and repeating “ohmygodohmygodohmygod” in my head over and over. then i blinked. and i had a ring on my finger and was kissing my fiance. all while autumn le (one of my best friends) sneakily snapped photos from behind the trees). we took a couple more photos and headed to bretts aunts house for a “family” party.
he said that none of our friends could make it because he sent the announcement out too late. (which kinda bummed me out). we drove. we were mushy. and smiling wildly. and just as we turned the corner to his aunts there were TONS of cars parked on the street and…he says…”oh yeah…and about 50 of our closest friends are here”
more overwhelming love. we were greeted by so many of our loved ones. i walked through the door with my future husband and on either side of us were people that are so special to the both of us in so many ways. it was beautiful. i was so glad to have so many people there to share the excitement and to be supportive of the life that brett and i are bravely embarking on together.
i still cant believe it.
im still BEYOND excited.
and i CAN NOT wait to begin a life with this man. he is everything i ever wanted. and so much more. i have never felt love like this. and i feel so incredibly lucky to have found someone who knows me like him. who loves me the way he does. he seriously is my best friend. i look at him and trust that i am in good hands. and i know that marriage is big…really big. and scary. but…with him. im not afraid. there is only totally insane, uncontrollable JOY.